Somewhere along the path of life we are suppose to "find our identity". We have to figure out who we are and what we want to become. Somehow we are supposed to fulfill our “when I grow up I want to be..." sentence.
As a woman this can be an ongoing struggle. Our “identities” can change so much as we walk through the different stages of life. Each one life's changes brings its challenges. For me personally, each stage brings fear. Disguised in many different forms, fear can control me before I even realize it.
I am my worst critic for sure, it’s a battle of the mind. I’m constantly trying to out do myself. It gets quite tiring at times! I’ve recently realized I have let myself become a slave to fear.
Fear that I’m not good enough...
As a wife, I feel the need to prove to myself that I’m worthy to be a wife. As a mother this battle is more real than ever! With Facebook, Pinterest, and every other person in the world letting me know all the things I’m doing wrong, my self-deprecation is fueled almost daily. As a business owner and photographer the pressure to perform can also be overwhelming.
The irony is, I was under the impression that the pressures and insecurities were suppose to go away when you became an adult. Well, the joke was on me. In some ways I feel it’s worse than ever. However, one thing I’ve learned over the past year is that God gave me this struggle, rather weakness, for a reason. You see it’s through our weakness that He is made strong.
My weakness, fear disguised in various forms, doesn't have to control me. You see, God gives us these weaknesses to see our need for Him. He wants to help us, when our lights go out his shines for us! He has redeemed us! He’s taken our weakness and given us His strength to fight our fears, whatever they may be. God likes to show off for us, and if we let him, He can daily.
So, to the young girl who is struggling with what you want to do and who you want to be, don’t let your fears define you. Remember in your weakness He is made strong; you’re not defined by the temporary things of this world.
To the moms out there who don’t think they’re good enough, the mom who always feels like she’s behind, the mom who struggles with her identity; remember that we aren’t defined by the amount of laundry we accomplish in a day or the size of our waist. We aren’t defined by the cleanliness of our home or the trendiness of our kid's wardrobe. We are defined by our relationship with the Creator of our very being. Just think about that! I believe if we could really grasp that concept, all of our fears and insecurities would disappear.
My sister recently introduced me to this song and I have probably listened to it 100 times already. I’m one of those who needs daily reminders of God’s truth in my life, I encourage you to listen to it and claim it as your own.
You don’t have to be a slave to fear!