I’ve started and restarted this post at least 5 times. I guess there is no other way to get on with it besides jumping right in, so here we go.
2015 was difficult year for me personally. I know when I think of some of my friends struggles this year it almost seems foolish to discuss my issues, however, that’s why I’m here, to share my struggles and passions with you.
It was a hard year for me emotionally and mentally because I put myself out in the open with this blog. I was very timid when I started, and although it’s gotten a little easier to be honest and open about certain areas of my life, there are others that are sealed shut.
For the past two months I’ve found myself questioning whether or not I should continue this endeavor of mine. In my first post, many months ago, I expressed my concern about feeling judged and criticised for even having a blog. All I can say is that feeling is stronger than ever. I’ve become fearful of being honest about my feelings as a wife and mother, afraid of sharing my thoughts about what God is teaching me, afraid of being rejected by my friends. The battle of my mind started to out power the will of my heart, then I realized sometimes God lets us go through these struggles to reaffirm His desire for our lives.
While I was battling this feeling, many of you served as God’s little helpers encouraging me to keep on going. Your text, comments, and kind words to me meant more than you’ll know! Sometimes a little affirmation is just what we need to keep us in God's will.
I’m eight months into this whole blogging thing and I’ve determined that this year I’m not going to let me fears dictate what I do and don’t blog about. My own insecurities and self deprecation have hindered me enough. It has always been my desire that this blog would encourage my readers, and that’s what I will continue to do. I think doubtful questioning can really hinder our potential, so if you’re struggling with something you feel God wants you to do, just do it.
So with this new year upon us, I’ve decided I’m going to open up my journal, that is filled with post I never typed out, and share them with you. There isn’t anything for me to be afraid of. It is okay if everyone doesn't see eye to eye with me; actually most people don’t, I’m really short. ;-)
My last request to you is that you too do whatever it is God is calling you to do. If you’re struggling with your ability, sometimes we just need a boost of confidence. So for fun, in the comments below let's get to know each other a little better. I’ll start by posting some questions and my answers in the comments area, and I’d love it if you would do the same!
Happy New Year to everyone and thanks for letting a little bit of me into your lives.